Juni 2015. 5 bulan lagi menjelang hari H.
“How’s the wedding
preparation?”
“Mau honeymoon
kemana?”
“Nanti abis nikah tinggal dimana?”
“Abis itu langsung punya anak?”
“Loh, kenapa ditunda-tunda? Ga
baik loh menolak rejeki dari Tuhan?”
Urutan pertanyaan yang belakangan ini sering banget gue
terima. Mulai dari yang normal sampai yang paling nyebelin, judgemental, dan
sok ngatur. It is not that I do not like it when people care about me. But some
people need to know the boundaries.
I do believe people have their own standards, their own
values, and their own plan. I will roll with my plans, and so do you with your
plans.
Our community used to think that it’s okay for them to
intervene other people’s plans for the sake of “Maksud gue kan baik”, “Kami mau
yang terbaik untuk kamu”, and so the list goes. But trust me people, your own
standard of happiness do not always apply the same on other people. Someone can
happily live his/her newly wed life in a small apartment rent in the center of
Jakarta with the crazy traffic jam everyday, while some people live happily in
the countryside, or some people need to travel around the world and go wanderlusting
to find their happiness. See? It’s different, right?
And so with my plans. Trust me, my standard of “Live life
happily ever after” with my husband to be could be very different with yours. Your
plans might be: have a spectacular and elegant wedding party, go to EU for your
honeymoon, three months after that you find out that you are pregnant (horray,
congratulations!), breeding without calculating how are you going to feed them
well and yeah, whatever your plan
is.
But my fiance and I, we want to go to some places, certain
beautiful places, which maybe you find it not beautiful at all. We want to do
this and that, which i think it is not that important to share it here (trust
me you don’t wanna know what’s the list). To make those plans come true, I need
to manage many things. Including my breeding schedule.
Thank God, I have supportive parents who understand that me
n my fiance want to do certain things before we finally have to settle down,
lowering our pace, and preparing the newly born baby and all it’s fuss. Mom
said, “Yang nanti akan bangun jam 2 pagi buat menyusui dan ganti popok itu
kamu, bukan mami,” and, “Yang nanti harus beliin susu, ngasih makan, dan
menyekolahkan itu kamu.”
So, ya, my mom understand it very well, that I am not ready
enough to be a mother. That’s not my ultimate life goal. And if I am not ready
yet, it is fine. Because you know, having a child is more than that. It is more
than ‘rejeki dari Tuhan’, ‘bukti cinta’, ‘meneruskan keturunan’. Human and their narcissistic
behaviour.
Henry Manampiring, my favorite Om from #OmOmUnite, the
writer of “Cinta Tidak Harus Mati”,
said this, “Adakah yang dirugikan jika kamu tidak mau punya anak? Justru punya
anak itu egois, karena memaksa seorang manusia untuk hadir di dunia ini padahal
dia tidak memintanya. Apa enaknya sih lahir di dunia kejam dan tidak fair ini? Sekali
lagi, seorang anak lahir di dunia karena ambisi orangtuanya, bukan atas
permintaannya sendiri.”
He added, “Kalau kamu tidak bahagia dengan menikah atau
punya anak, jangan dipaksakan hanya untuk memenuhi ekspektasi orang lain.
Menikah dan punya anaklah karena kamu merasa siap dan merasa sukacita
melakukannya.”
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